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Paul William Walker IV (born September 12, 1973) is an American actor with Albanian ancestry. He became well known in 1999 after his role in the hit film Varsity Blues. He is also known for starring in the surprise summer hit The Fast and the Furious. His other films include Joy Ride, Running Scared, Into the Blue and Eight Below. The films he has starred in have grossed more than $1.7 billion. He also appears in the National Geographic Channel series Expedition Great White..
Walker was born in Glendale, California and raised in the San Fernando Valley area of Los Angeles County, the son of Cheryl, a fashion model, and Paul Walker III, a sewer contractor. His paternal grandfather was a professional boxer. He is the oldest of five, having two brothers and two sisters. Walker was raised as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, or Mormon, church. He attended and graduated from Village Christian School. After high school, he attended several community colleges where he majored in marine biology.
Vin Diesel (born Mark Sinclair Vincent; July 18, 1967) is an American actor, writer, director and producer. He became known in the early 2000s, appearing in several successful Hollywood films, including The Fast and the Furious and xXx. He founded the production companies One Race Films, Tigon Studios and Racetrack Records.
Vin Diesel was born in New York City, the son of Delora, a psychiatrist and astrologer. Diesel has white and black ancestry. He has described himself as "definitely a person of color" and stated that he is "of ambiguous ethnicity – Italian and a lot of other stuff." Diesel has never met his biological father, and was raised by his African-American stepfather, Irving, an acting instructor and theatre manager. He made his stage debut at age seven when he appeared in the children's play Dinosaur Door, written by Barbara Garson. The play was produced at Theater for the New City in New York's Greenwich Village. His involvement in the play came about when he, his brother, and some friends had broken into Theater for the New City's space on Jane Street with the intent to vandalize it. They were confronted by the theater's artistic director, Crystal Field, who, instead of calling the police, handed them scripts and offered them parts in the upcoming show. He remained involved with the theatre throughout adolescence, going on to attend the city's Hunter College, where his creative writing studies led him to begin screenwriting. Diesel became an active film-maker in the early 1990s, first earning notice for the short film Multi-Facial, which was selected for screening at the 1995 Cannes Festival. Diesel has identified himself as a "multi-faceted" actor as a result of early difficulties finding roles due to his mixed heritage.
There's comfort in these words.
I'm hardly listening.
Sleep hides in a pill.
Winter kills all smiles.
White walls all around me.
It's been three months now.
I'm shaking.
I grab a pen.
I'm afraid to write.
I'm sinking.
Buy me a drink.
I'll be your friend.
A therapy for my head.
I'm hardly breathing.
How many times can you die?
A grey cloud without rain
won't wash the pain away.
Those thoughts stole my dreams.
I'm waiting.
I'm tired.
Patience keeps me running late.
I never put my bets on fate.
Time is on the finish line.
Can you tell me why I'm feeling fine?
We build a fire in the winter.
We're shivering and we're wondering.
I feel so warm inside when I'm with you.
I spent my days remembering.
I'm confused, I'm wondering.
Are you waiting on the finish line?
We get our drugs from our pharmacists.
Are we all getting ready for the moving day?
We have all become over-worried these days.
Or maybe we're just accepting it.
A hundred different pens are telling the same story.
A hundred different sheets on a hundred different floors.
This is our last chance to fuck it up.
We noticed that the stars are just stars
and that there's just nothing more to it.
I guess we already fucked it up big time.
Who will breathe for us?
I'm down. I'm out.
I'm dead. I'm deaf.
I'm dumb. I'm suffocating.
You're weak. You're strong.
You're pale. You're great.
You're late. We're fornicating.
Like dinners after funerals.
Like street lights that forgot to shine.
Like ashtrays on a windy night.
Like old books and their perfect smell.
Like a train that's off the tracks,
you wonder if you're running late.
Why did you never tell me
that you wanted to to die?
I thought that you were sleeping,
found out you weren't breathing.
You told me you were desperate
and lucky to have met me.
How could I have guessed
you needed more than just attention?
You could have been ok
if we had left this town
and moved to a place
where no one knows our names.
I'm sorry I wasn't a better friend
but I guess I was just scared too.
Too much too soon,
all over you.
Never really got to know you.
I wanted to go away with you
to places you've never been too.
Were you feeling lonely
whenever I was with you.
Someone said you looked sad,
I though that she was joking.
You were desperately
trying to communicate.
I didn't see this coming.
Something you forgot to mention?
No hard feelings but you just killed me.
Now finish the job and bury me.
Thirty feet down under the ground.
It's time to say goodnight.
I hope you sleep too tight.
I come and visit you in your thoughts.
It's time to say goodnight.
I hope you sleep too tight.
I broke my teeth on chewing theses words.
It..s getting hard for me to breathe now.
I can feel it filling up my lungs.
Thirty feet down under the ground.
I cannot stand the whiteness of this dirty bathroom anymore.
Singing to songs I didn't write makes me feel like stealing these days.
I wish that I could still try and stop being afraid.
I hope I'll sleep safe and sound.
I guess I think too much.
So now laugh at me!
Another beer, another smoke and I start to choke.
I wish that I could write again.
You really make me smile. It has been a while.
I see your face with closed eyes again.
He's off to war and she waits for the phone call,
the one that will tell her he's gone.
He is fighting for something that she hasn't seen yet.
She always knew the day would come.
And all she ever said was:
"This war is like a drug to you!"
She can't feel secure until she knows that he's safe,
she only wants him to come home.
She wants their baby son to remember his daddy.
She really needs him to be home.
Hey man, she waits for you.
Amen, she waits for you.
So high that when you fall you might just break.
So tired, oh God, your pity makes me sick!
Somehow your letter's missing 'I miss you's'.
Tongue-tied, you were never someone to talk to.
A compromise. When did we learn to be so wise?
I promise you I'll always wait for you.
That night, after you let the cat out.
You lied about the way you felt that night.
Somehow we both knew it was your call.
Tonight, in loving memory, I write.
This is a song for all the mad ones,
who never yawn, who never sleep
but only dream.
This is a song for all the mad ones,
who never die, who live in hearts,
I'm one of them.
I'm not allowed to go out.
You call me crazy and obscene,
you call me lazy and a freak.
I'm not a freak!
You call me boring and a mess
and in my life there's no success.
Oh I confess!
My hometown's red.
I'm half awake at twelve.
I close these eyes again.
I'm half dressed at seventeen
and I still keep them closed.
I felt half-dead by the time I turned twenty-one.
I don't feel alive at the age of twenty-two.
I might feel okay at twenty three.
I got overwhelmed like an empty shell
that's waiting to get fired again.
I'm chasing dreams in the town where I grew up.
I play with grenades in these dirty streets.
A hundred drinks, a hundred smokes, a hundred perfect times.
I got a bomb for reality.
Can anyone ever count on me?
I tried to get it right on many sleepless nights.
It's an itch I cannot scratch.
I guess I'm cursed with procrastination.
I hate myself for not paying attention.
My heart is broke and I feel so jaded.
You're the reason why I'm so frustrated.
Every night I fall asleep with the lights on.
I wake up shaking, realising that you're gone.
I kept believing you and me were on good terms,
while you tried to tell me that you had your problems.
I believe I would have seen it coming
if I spent less time on the songs I'm writing.
I never cared for what you were saying.
I can't blame you.
You gave up on waiting.
I hope you're better off alone and without me.
I hope you find someone that sees what you see.
I'm moving out to live in a hotel room.
I hope you miss me when you see what I did.
I painted the walls red with my blood.
I told myself I'd never leave here again.
I live in hotel rooms.
I'm staying forever.
Half awake and aching.
Eyes rolled back and shaking.
I'm trying to find out what
you are all about.
I'm dying to win this
just for one last kiss.
You called my room to see if I was okay.
I was dead by then with nothing to say to you.
When I fall, I'm falling down to the ground
and then I die. I can't stand this pain in my brain.
When I drown, I'm drowning slowly in the ocean
and then I die. There will be nothing left of me.
I know there's something wrong.
I think I lost my mind today.
There can't be no other way.
Now watch what you say
because everybody's listening.
I'm trying hard to face the day.
Will everything turn out okay?
No one'll hear me out
but they will all be listening.
They'll rip my heart out if I stay.
They'll be the death of me today
and I can't figure out why
they're so kind to me.
I'm trying hard to breathe today.
They don't see I'm not okay.
My neck will crack at no one
and no one will be listening.
The children they will find a way
not to end up like me today.
My headstone will read:
"No one was ever listening!"
Why are they so kind to me?
I do belong here.
Talk to me.
Lie to me in your sleep.
Waste your time.
Waste your days on me.
You're the main character in a stupid film I call my life.
Tell me that
this isn't what you need.
Tell me now
and I'll stop bothering you.
Did someone foresee the epidemic
and if so why weren't we told?
Would we have changed if we had known
or would we have stayed the same?
Anyway it's too late now,
this is our terminal disease.
Soon we'll regret to not have cared
when our neighbors got the flu.
It's spreading faster than
anything you've ever seen
and on TV they tell us it's contained.
I always guessed that ignorance
would be the end of human nature.
And that garbage we produce
would be the death of mother earth.
Anyway it's much too late,
a postcard from the apocalypse.
Soon we'll regret to not have cared
My arms are broken and bruised.
We have an accident every night.
We crashed the car the same way again.
We share a punctured lung.
We're sleeping in our burning wreck.
Summer tires on winter nights.
I press my lips upon your scars.
I love you more than I did before.
Seatbelts are so useless and safe.
I look into your scared eyes.
A car crash is so pretty and vain.
I just hope to see you again.
We've died so many times before.
We crash the car forevermore.
There's piles of glass on the floor.
Our wounds they never start to heal.
We kiss in agony and pain.
This is our art, our obsession.
We spend our lives in hospitals.
All is fair in love and war.
Two of the things that we declare.
Friendly fire, we're hangmen.
Our bond is cynically unsound.
We tied the knot for hate's sake.
Guess, we never had a chance.
Hey! Wait!
I've awoken in your side of town.
For some reason I felt down.
Should we just kill each other now
or should we converse without a sound?
Corpsman, corpsmen, I am down.
This war of words has raged for years.
Our ever-after in the end.
I'll strangle you with my bear hands.
I always thought that they were strong.
We're both fighting on your side.
I capitulate, you amputate.
I own my limbs, you own my heart.
I fall back and you affront.
You crossed out your eyes
in a blush of shame.
You had an itch to keep scratching.
A sweet-tempered personality
is always mournful.
Your cheeks blossom cherry-colored.
Complementary, out-dated
medicine,
so convenient and temporary.
Take a sample as an example for
the bullet resting in your skull.
Your expression's blue.
You're cold as smoke.
I can't help you out of your life.
My words are outdated and low.
I've spent to years on suicide watch.
Save this feeling!
I know you're strong.
Just hold on a few more days
I'm a constellation trying to make out with you.
My eyes write a book on you that you will never read.
I try to concentrate
but it's just so hard with you around
and so I stand in line and wait for you to show.
Twenty-five thousand words to make you see that I still care
but you never seem to have the time to hear me out.
I'm sleeping by the phone.
I'm waiting for you to come home.
I try to translate my feelings.
I fuckin' hate this place and I don't
ever want to be here again.
I don't even know if I can trust
you now, my so-called friend.
I've always been there
to tell you to hold on.
I've always had an ear
to lend you and a
shoulder to cry on.
I'm no longer here.
Can't you see I'm doing this
because I think that it's best for us both?
There comes a time in life where
you should free yourself and be on your own.
Some might say I'm wrong
I see you shaped in dotted lines.
You waste your time and all of mine.
I cut you out and then I'll try
to fold you to a paper boat.
Your special present,
the one I'll only stare at.
Sits waiting on my door steps.
You wrapped it up nicely in regrets.
Your wounds they never start to heal.
You blind me with your sunless smile.
The rain and its one-hand clapping sound
I can't go where you've been.
I can't say I want to.
It's nothing you you want to talk about.
I can't be the one you need to be yourself.
Guess I fell victim to your lovely smile.
I guess it's true 'cause you believe.
I tried to believe you.
I tried to be all yours.
You told me that it's all I ever be.
I know now that you're gone and
that I've been foolish to believe
a single word you've ever said.
As you grow old, you're growing cold.
Remind me to remember you
when you come visit me.
You'll find me tucked in sterile sheets,
so white they blind your eyes.
I try hard to be patient.
I've been waiting for years.
Examination head to toe.
When will they cut me up?
What is my condition?
I had an accident.
Prescription only medicine.
I am trying to keep still
when I meet my anesthetist.
He injects sleeps into my veins.
I am gutless, emptied out.
Water my insides, they've dried out.
Will this ever taste the same again?
Can you feel me crawl inside you?
I breathe in glass, my lungs they itch.
I swallow knives, my stomach's numb.
I'm shitting blood. I cough up words.
I nurse my drink.
I'm buried in oblivion.
I'm cut and dried.
Handle me with care.
I'm fiber glass.
I can't fuck
no matter how
much I want you.
Scratch all you want,
Today might be the day I'm giving up
because actions are louder than words
and words remain harder to find.
I try to keep my head from thinking.
Even though I wrote this play,
I forgot to write a part for myself.
It doesn't bother me that much because
I know I'd end up drinking next to the stage.
They all keep acting as I keep sinking.
I can't recall when it was,
I choose to live life this way
but I can say that I don't regret that day.
Even though inspiration gets harder to find,
there must be something special about being fucked up all the time.
I'm feeling like an aeroplane when I fly around your head.
I am all eyes when I look through your mind.
Say hello to your savior!
You can't fly on broken wings.
I stole your poetry as I stole your vocabulary.
You're nothing but wasted ink.
That's all I want you to be.
It's time for work miss Candy.
You're pretty and stupid.
You're pretty stupid.
When will you learn to walk again?
When will you learn to talk again?
It's time you learn to fly miss.
Hold on my sweet angel,
I got some glue for your wings.
Clear the smoke in your head, I got a bag of vacuum.
You're part of this story because I wrote about you.
I'll fix you.
Are you a saint or someone I've met before?
Are you a dream or someone I've known before?
What is wrong with missing you?
Are you a saint or someone I've hurt before?
Genius is born, not paid.
Time is spent not saved.
I want to be natural.
I'm a mathematical disaster.
Sing your heart out! Make it rain.
It's a sin to kill a mockingbird.
Getting laid in the nineties
to pretend to be grown up.
Like an explosion in chemistry.
Like an F in contemporary history.
I'm still the train wreck I was back then
but on different tracks.
I was heading for nowhere and I got there.
And I'm still here.
I have this friend for years now.
We both learned from the same book, the same words.
You're the person that could ruin me.
Naked and honest, we spend the day under sheets.
You're the person that is saving me.
You're lying next to me, watching over me as I sleep.
You keep me safe and you make me smile.
I found home in those arms and hope in those eyes.
We're laughing at ourselves sometimes and at our stupid jokes.
You're the only thing on my mind.
All those senseless stupid things mean so much to me.
You fill the walls up in this room.
I see your face when I close these eyes.
You mean so much to me.
With eyes like magnets you save me.
I owe you so much more than
these stupid words to this stupid song.
You close your eyes to get a cigarette kiss.
You grab my hand as I'm tripping over my own feet.
You have every right to be the one
that tells that I..m wrong.
It's those arms,
Let's all be ugly tonight.
Let's be freaks.
Let's drink to the death of beauty.
Let's make a lot of noise instead of right notes.
And maybe we just feel pretty.
Sweet nausea.
Burn this place down!
It all seems so perfect.
It all feels so perfect.
It all feels just right.
I want to pass out right here.
I want to die in these clothes.
I want to smoke my lungs out.
I want to burn this place down.
I don't know exactly what I mean by that, but I mean it.
Sunday came without a weekend.
I'm hanging over.
I left my keys on her table.
Watch where you're going because
I'm with the walking dead.
I'm dying to et you know
I'm still alive.
And the phone rings every hour,
way too loud.
Leave me hanging from my rope.
Sweetheart, could you save this moment?
I'm begging you
please stop breaking my heart.
No more calls until I start
to live again.
Someone wrote these words before
and my back's against the wall
as I try to be original.
Did you try to call me all week?
I cracked my head open on my bedroom floor.
Did you try to talk to me all week?
Well, I don't want to talk to you.
Just get out of my room.
I scratched out my eyes,
I can't stand the sunshine.
I feel okay as long
as I'm feeling like dying.
I trust these lies that
I didn't tell myself and
I trust the things that are
killing me in the end
Miles to go before i get this right.
I typed for hours now, smoke fills my eyes.
I've lost myself in these words about
untraveled roads and drunken smiles.
1983 has been my year.
Angels die like you and me,
that's what I learned.
I am through with this.
It hurts my eyes.
I wanna be original tonight.
So if you found the one to trust.
Save her now before it's too late.
I found someone with whom I spent
all night, so tight.
I know that I'm addicted to the one I love.
I love her more than this, more than anything.
I guess she's crazy to think I'm not.
I built this life for you to keep,
only to bury it three feet deep.
I'm a superhero without powers
left to stare at empty hands.
I've never been a friend to you.
Did this start to fall apart
with lies and shallow promises?
When did this start to feel so dull?
Both in your room the other night,
instead of giving in, we fight.
I'm smoking on your windowsill,
blowing smoke into the rain.
It's raining flames inside your room.
I didn't want to say this,
I live in a hospital.
I'm so sick of being sick on a fine day.
I live in a hospital.
Cut me open and figure me out on a fine day.
I'm so tired of these walls.
I live in a hospital.
It's nice to meet my anesthetist on a fine day.
I live in a hospital.
I watch the water boil
and raise the temperature.
I hear you read out loud,
I know your words so well.
We keep alive and drift apart.
We share our separate property.
We live apart, we're paired for life.
You used to be my favourite one.
A stranger holds your hand.
I did not invite him in.
They both want me to sign.
This one will always remain unfinished.
A few more lines that don't make any sense.
I guess I ran out of words again.
It would take nine furry lives for me to get through with this.
I'm walking on a matress.
I'm talking without an accent.
If you would be me, you'd rather be yourself.
I'm derailed.
I'm digging my own grave.
I saw a picture of myself ten years from now.
I didn't like what I saw.
It's funny how everything always turns out fine in the end.
Maybe I'll add a few more lines. Maybe I won't.
Does it make a difference to you? Because to me it doesn't.
So let's have fun and smile
I got away with lies and other things i said
but I got more to say so please stay here today.
You know that I can't lie.
If you turn your back on me
I promise I won't call your name.
I remember days. I remember ways.
I remember times where I knew all my lines.
Where have these times gone?
It's okay if you want to fight
When did I become the lucky one?
I'll have to admit, you are the one.
When did I deserve someone so kind?
I can't believe I call you mine.
And I'll be damned if I ruin this!
I still feel so young each time we kiss.
I wish you're here to stay
to say the things that you say!
Time flies by fast, leaves us behind.
You're the only thought I have on my mind.
I'll have to agree you are the one
you bring me air when I am drowned.
It still gives me shivers when you laugh,
it reminds me of great times that have passed.
I hope that when you're gone
I can pretend you're home!
I still see your smile and I don't know what to say
I threw up my vocal chords,
my lungs are punctured
and it still took three long months
for these words to come out right.
You got that look in your eyes,
the one that tells me you're sick and fucking tired
of listening to me now.
Still there's no one else to talk to,
no one else to open up to.
Would you give me one last chance?
Either way I'm fucking lost.
Would you dare
or even care
if I told you everything's alright?
Take these words,
shove them away
and believe them any other day.
I tried to drown these thoughts
in alcohol, just put on a drunken smile
and the two of you looked tired.
I've lost all integrity
in a bottle of shame
and a million cigarettes.
I knew you'd give up on me.
There is nothing I could say to you
to convince you that these words are true
so I just pass out in front of you.
When cuts are deep the scars will stay.
I guess my mind's too far away.
A plastic smile is all it takes.
The feeling sticks and just might stay.
So I save the day for another catastrophe!
I guess nothing ever made much sense to me.
A few more drinks and I show you catastrophes.
If you buy these words I'll take you all down with me.
I never learned to learn from mistakes.
Faking a smile is all it takes.
I count to ten and take that pill.
Just another day I have to kill.
I guess I smile because I'm happy to live with nothingness.
I was grinning when I learned the name.
Catastrophe?
I stare at your photograph,
a bird's eye view of you.
You follow my every move
with those dizzying bedroom eyes.
I watch them close
as they explode.
You're blue in the face my dear.
An expression so blank, so low.
You can tell me what's haunting you.
I'm afraid you were born afraid.
You took my soul.
I kiss your feet.
So broke and I'm not saving you.
You break every day the same way.
So close I can almost taste you.
I was going home.
Wanted to be alone.
I broke the telephone.
Wanted to be unknown.
Words were dancing like stars.
Thoughts were faster than cars.
We were uglier than scars.
We went to peepshows and bars.
So horny I couldn't sleep.
So corny I couldn't speak.
So lazy I couldn't die.
So honest I couldn't lie.
I tried so hard to make this count
in the prettiness of making sounds.
I tried so hard to write this down
I wanna be a stranger today
and act so strange in my own way.
The smile I wear is nothing but fake.
I hope I sleep before I wake.
I hold my breath and count to ten,
afraid to go to sleep again.
With shaking hands I grab a pen,
afraid to write the same again.
And nothing's worth the pain.
Four more lines and I'll keep quiet.
I guess there's nothing left to say.
Two more lines and it doesn't feel right.
I guess that's easy for me to say.
I found sleep in a pill.
It takes my mind so far away.
I was drinking to forget their shit-talking.
I was drinking to forget the heroes that I've never found.
I was drinking to forget the wrong words that I've said.
I was drinking to hide from my own ghosts.
The word 'life' could mean
so much more than this.
Dreams of red water in a white bath tub.
Dreams of gray cold blades cutting through my skin.
I was drinking to forget the fuckers that I hate.
I was drinking to drown the thoughts up in my head.
I was drinking to keep on lying to myself.
I was drinking to pass the time.
With eyes I can trust,
you are saving me, my friend.
With empty pockets refilled,
I'm shaking hands with my ghosts.
This haunted town has a name.
I've dusted for prints.
I know who I am.
I see fool's gold on the third.
I'll wear mine if you wear yours.
We had an accident,
our only common ground.
It was a close call, a near miss
but we knew someone had to pick and choose.
I picked you, you chose yourself.
I still want you all the time.
Our first kiss was your first disapproval.
I want to talk about the fun we never had.
I'll drink to us all by myself again.
Unplug the cable, you're not home.
I'll leave the lights on
because one night you might just find your way.
The list was long and blue.